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Pack Up And Go

Do you ever wake up in the morning with a strong desire to start anew in a different place? That urge to pack a bag and buy a one-way ticket to a new city? If you answered “yes” then why don’t you? If you have the resources to do so and there is nothing truly stopping you (I’m talking about all those little excuses people say to stop themselves) then buy that one-way ticket. Wherever you go next in your life I am sure you will be happier. Obviously there’s more to happiness than location but it serves as a setting in your happiness. It’s where you live, where you work, it’s your home basically your city surroundings are a foundation that take part in a lot of your happiness. If you ever feel unhappy or underwhelmed or even confused maybe it’s time to pack up and go somewhere new. It could be as simple as booking a flight or packing up your car and leaving. What if all you needed to clear your head is to play your life out some where new. Perhaps meeting new people, exploring a new place, investing yourself in a new city is what brings your life the boost it needs.

Especially right now as millennials and twenty-somethings we are dreamers with goals but are we’re struggling. Don’t worry elders we understand that we have to start at the bottom of the work hierarchy. We’re not stupid. We just didn’t think it was going to be this difficult after graduation. Some of us work a salary job on top of hourly paid jobs to pay off loans, rent and other grown up bills. Some might say it’s irresponsible to want to move somewhere else regardless if we have a well paying job or not. Poo poo on those naysayers because if you think it’ll benefit you more than where you are right now I say go for it. Instead of continuing to say “I wanna move there” “I’ll do it eventually” start making it your reality and make steps towards your big move.

Sometimes you have to get in that car or plane or train and just go. Don’t live your life out in a place where you know you don’t belong. That’s the worst.

Comparison Will Kill You

We need to stop comparing ourselves to others. We may all appear to be at similar places in our lives but we’re not. Do your own thing. Just because you’re getting older it shouldn’t stop you from wanting to do things. For instance, I am looking at going back to school. Not for a MBA but for another BA/BS in Accounting. It has been worrying me that I’ll be 30-32 years old by the time I graduate with a degree and I could have been traveling or move to a new city and even save money. School is not cheap and I will be paying for it myself. A friend told me that I still have plenty of time and to not worry. “People need to stop comparing themselves to each other. Just because other people are moving and getting promoted in their careers it doesn’t make you any less important. Just do you. And besides if you’re comparing yourself to them it means they are comparing themselves to you.”

Love/Relationships (Thoughts and Ramblings)

“One of the most important milestones I ever reached in my life was accepting that people won’t always love you the way you want them to” – Beau Taplin

The first time I said “I love you” was over an awkward text message. Generally, this is done face to face but I’ve never been good with timing and I tend to word vomit in these types of situations. I kept replaying Rebel Wilson’s line in Pitch Perfect on my head after I said it.

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I meant it as a friend and a lover. The lover part is gone but the love as a friend is still there.

“You can love a person without wanting to be with them. Just like you can want to be with someone before you love them” – Thomas Maddox

I don’t know if I’m ready to be in a relationship yet. I’m still trying to figure out who I am. I mean like I should probably date to get out of my comfort zone. I’m so used to doing things without having to worry about someone else’s feelings.

We always joked that one day you would swim away and never come back and you just laughed and said if only.

It’s important to know the difference between sacrifice and settling.

Sometimes we need things from people that they can’t give us. That doesn’t make us worse for needing them or worse for not giving.

I’ve always gone with the go for it tactic. Whether it ends bad or good it was an experience. It’s like diving into the ocean blindfolded. You can prepared as much as you want for the reactions to situations or the future but ultimately it’s out of your hands.

Life

Don’t base your happiness off of circumstances. You don’t need everything to be going your way in order for you to be happy. I am happiest outside. Whether it’s in the mountains or sitting by the ocean. It’s where I know myself best.

Know that happiness is not a destination. It’s a mood. It comes and goes and that’s okay. That means we can find happiness more often in the little things life has to offer.

I’m trying new things. I’m putting my dance background to use and I hope I don’t fall on my head.

Be present in every moment.

Every time I fill out a college application I think “why the F am I doing this?” Applications for anything are the worst.

“I think you’ve really got to wait and see how things play out. Sometimes a decision you might consider a regret or failure in the present can turn out to be the catalyst for something extraordinary in the end. Some of life’s wildest journeys begin with a wrong turn” – Beau Taplin

To be continued… 

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On Hiking Alone and Family Bonding

image I should really buy an annual pass to Rocky Mountain National Park. I go so early that the pay station isn’t open yet or I guess “temporarily closed” according to the sign on the window. Unfortunately, I didn’t get up early enough though to make sunrise but I did see the alpenglow driving up to the trailhead.

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This isn’t the first time I have hiked by myself and it won’t be my last. But this time I had a weird feeling. Probably because I spoke to my sister the night before about sunrise hikes. She mentioned she’s always scared a mountain lion will pop out of nowhere. Thanks Charles! Well, that should be a fear for anyone hiking even if they are with a group. It never occurred to me that I would encounter one. I mean, no one “sees” a mountain lion. They’re fricken stealthy animals. Anyway, I didn’t see one luckily but I spooked myself.

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I started the trail to Odessa Lake pretty late probably around 6:30 am so the sun was up. I read the trail was a popular one so it reassured me that there would be a few people hiking in the morning. I ended up behind a group of tourists but they turned at Flattop Mountain. So it was just me. I wasn’t worried until a little ways in. Usually I would catch up to someone or there would be people behind me. Nothing. I got real scared and fortunately there was cell reception so I called my mom haha. After a brief pep talk a couple walked along the path. Hooray! I tagged along with them. They had so much knowledge on RMNP it was quite the educational experience. I nervously asked about wildlife in the park. He noted that he hasn’t heard any news on mountain lion sightings but he did see a bear a couple weeks ago on the same trail we were on. Awesome.

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The trail is very moderate with great views of Flattop Mountain, Notchtop Mountain, Little Matterhorn, Nobtop Mountain and Gabletop Mountian. The clouds were still hovering pretty low so there was a light mist and a brisk wind. I was surprised to find that Odessa Lake is like a little beach. I hadn’t been to a lake in CO (in the mountains) that had sand. It was a nice treat and if it wasn’t threatening to storm I would have stayed longer. Next time I will do Fern lake/Fern falls and make the loop to I think Big Thompson to take the shuttle back to Bear lake parking lot.

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My younger brothers came to visit! It was also my niece’s first birthday. They were here for a week and of course I took them hiking. It was probably the most physical activity they have done all summer. I took them to McCullough Gulch in Breckenridge. It took us a long time to find the trailhead. My sister’s directions were super confusing. It’s the same turnoff for Quandary Peak but you take the McCullough Gulch road all the way down until you see a sign that says “McCullough Gulch trail.” The road is gravel with loads of massive potholes. If you don’t want to risk a flat tire you can park on the side and walk to the trail but it is pretty far away and would add on some miles to the actual hike. This was also a moderate hike even though my younger brothers were dying from altitude. It was a fun short hike up to the lake. Apparently there’s an upper lake with a hidden trail so I will need to check that out.

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